我听到外面一阵嘈杂。一个女人在咆哮，像是出于愤怒。起初我听不清，但当我走到外面无意中闯入那个场景，这些言语就清晰可闻。“你怎样完成这个句子？”这位女士质问她困惑的孩子。这个女孩是她妈妈的映射，在妈妈焦灼的质问中迷失了，像是一头被俘获的小鹿。“如果你打算出去玩，你要讲'我出去玩'还是'你出去玩？”这位母亲现在为了强调开始挥舞双臂。“答案是"I play outside!’"这些话对这小孩子来说还没产生什么意义，但是对我来说却是饱含着爱与情感。它并不是在简单呈现一个母亲想要孩子学习功课的愿望落空，而坐在自家仓库外对着人行道宣泄愤怒。这个迷失的孩子专注的听着妈妈对于更好的未来，更好的人生，更好的反馈的一种恳求。我想这个孩子稍后是否会记得同妈妈一起的这一幕。或者这个情景是否会渐渐褪色直至与其他关于母亲的记忆融为一体。她是否会明白妈妈的话并不仅仅作用于她的功课，更是对一个目睹了这一幕的旁观者产生了极为深远的意义。她会懂得她的妈妈远比那些怪责的言语所能表达的还要爱她，那些言语随着时间的流逝都会淡化，但是其中的寓意却会保留下来。

过去一周左右我从alivenotdead收获了很多生日祝福！特此对于所有温暖的祝福表示感谢！

最近我一直很忙。刚刚结束了与郭锦恩，原子穗共同合作的新舞台剧《性感熟女》。我再度演绎了Penis这个角色，不得不说其乐无穷，非双关语！很快我将得到一些相关照片，近期会张贴出来！

同时我也担任了上周五新浪潮电影展开幕式的司仪。新浪潮电影展是由香港演艺人协会组织、旨在为香港新生电影人创作机遇、展示才华。今年，alivenotdead成为新浪潮电影展的合作媒介，能够支持演艺人协会及新浪潮电影展我感到非常高兴！

周一，【关爱艾滋】为24Herbs以及所有支持帮助24Herbs 的 MV和红丝带活动的人们举办了一次酒会。很高兴在聚会上看到大家，也多谢loretta给我一块生日蛋糕！

周六，我将与原子穗共同献声一场爵士音乐会。时间本周六，5月23日，地点 Backstage! 对于此次表演以及能与原子穗，宫硕良，Eugene 和 the gang共同合作我充满了期待！当然我们依旧会呈现爵士乐，一定超级好玩。音乐会广告一则！





如果你身在香港而且想在周六听些爵士，那么来参加吧！届时期待见到各位！

Terence

Woke up this morning and received a message from a friend that got me to think about the effect time has on passion.  Passion is like a fire, a raging urge to engulf, to consume, to give, to sacrifice, to rise above the mundane and the routine, to be stronger and brilliant for the sake of someone, something, or some cause.  Passion is like the spark of a match, intense and agitated, a friction that can turn phosphorus and wood into a burning flame.  The question that struck me this morning is, how do you keep the match burning? 

On the surface, it looks like a lost cause.  The brittle wood that makes the match stem can only burn for so long.  A slight breeze can easily kill a flame without shelter.  Angle the match the wrong way as it burns, the fire will not consume enough nourishment and die on the broken stem. 

In love, friends are always talking about how great their "honeymoon" period was and that after some time, their relationship settles. They still "love" their partner, but not like they once did.  That passionate love that compelled them into love has become a habit, a comfort, as if they are moving forward only by the momentum left from the passionate flame that has long since turned into embers and ash. 

In this uphill battle where nature and nurture seems to frown upon a lasting flame, what is it inside us that can help us remember, maintain, and nurture the flame that defines us?  There is no easy answer to this question.  And certainly there are no grand, verbose theories that can be of any use here.

Embers and ash retain the flames potential and can burn once again with the wind.  When we are all so consumed with our daily responsibilities and the trials and tribulations of our lives, we just need to remember to take some time for ourselves away from the fray.  Take a deep breath feel the embers inside glow and radiate an energy once forgotten.  Nurture the muses of our passion and allow ourselves to be wild, simple, and free if just for a moment. 

It is important for all our us to nurture our flame.  Without which we are at the mercy of inertia, like particles drifting aimlessly in space.  For a life that threatens to have no greater purpose, our faith rests in that we believe there is more and that a tiny spark can turn common elements into something beautiful, brilliant, and worth living for. 

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